so basically this is a page where I might write down stuff I've done recently or maybe a while ago
well I mean, like, sometimes I forget exactly when, similar to when I draw things since I don't write dates on the papers
but yeah, anyways
- 3/18/25
okay so I am extremely sorry about this, I forgot about this website I had for way longer than I probably should've, and therefore didn't really write much on it for a long while. I'm here now at the very least, probably needing to finish more information pages at one point or another. I honestly can't remember much of what I've done recently at the moment, apart from maybe like finding this one cool online pokemon game that my one friend told me about to play it with him (still haven't really played it yet, but getting at it) but yeah like in general I had be fixated on pokemon stuff and everything, and a lot of it is really cool. I learned how to play the actual game with the trading cards for the first time EVER, but sadly I really don't have many ways of truly playing it well or many people to play it with, even with having tabletop simulator.
though it is ridiculous, my one hope is to one day randomly find someone who has a deck of pokemon cards, so I can battle them with it
oh, and I also learned how to play a super obscure playing card game called parlay that my one other friend the habit rabbit man taught me, I like it a lot though it is a lot to learn and teach, and can take a lot of time to play out, but I did play it out during lunch once at least, which was cool
- 2/9/25
came back today after this like super short trip and stuff that only lasted a day or so. I went to like this cool town where it was basically the oldest town in america from being from the original spainards and stuff, but unfortunately it was hard to really appreciate it and stuff, since I was feeling ill from my flu or whatever that was still lasting way longer than I think it really should've. it certainly got better once I got home, but my throat and crap wasn't the best, so I sat in the car for a lot. but it looked cool at least, you know. also, just recently got that one cool jojo artbook from online I ordered recently, wanted to get the more recent one made since about part 5, but it was too expensive compared to this. but it's still really cool and stuff anyway
- 2/4/25
I woke up today slow and tired, really unable to get myself ready to deal with the rest of the day like I usually do. so today, I had to stay home from being sort of sick. during this time I at least drew a bit while laying down and watching like a wes anderson movie on the couch. I also have made more progress to completing my esoteric bullshit pages. also also, while I don't usually mention what I listen to, since it helps to have music to write down my thoughts, I would like to mention that I'm writing this one specifically while listening to the sopranos intro, which I thought was funny. anyway, I have to get those drawings I made today on here along with some others I grabbed from before
- 2/1/25
the last two days have been really really short and such, mostly from me spending like fucking 9 hours at my honors choir perfomance rehearsal. it was a long like 2 hour drive both on the day of the rehearsal and on the actual performance.
though the actual performance itself was only 5 hours though. there was some funny people from some other schools and such, like the one guy in tenor I sat next to who I joked around with as I watched the other part of the performance with them. anyway, while I was there too, I had like a few thoughts I don't remember too much about but do remember asking something to my friend about. mostly on how I felt this strange feeling when it came to what kind of people were in a social group with me. in which I had the feeling that like, being around a bunch of boys is sort of intimidating in a way, where I assume they can get rowdy together. but being around only other girls is almost intimidating as well, as if it feels competitive, or really that I would be singled out. so truthfully, I think I realized and asked about how I seemingly am much more comfortable with a group of people if there are both girls and boys.
or maybe I'm really just more comfortable around queer people, which is probably the answer.
straight and cis people too much is annoying if not almost unsettling to me
- 1/27/25
fucking finally gonna actually post those photos of my drawings and stuff with page for it, I know I said I would before a bunch, but I like really mean it this time. and I'm gonna start on the tarot pages
also, had a chorus rehearsal today. after years of hating myself while in it, thinking I sounded like shit, I finally now don't feel like that, and now all I focus on is others around me actually being worse, so that I, as the older kid in the section, can tell them how to actually do what they think they're shit at, ironically just like how I felt myself.
the circle of life really is something I guess.
- 1/25/25
I lost some of my nice nail paint in dark blue I had today, where I thought I left it on the same table I work on but it isn't there, so I don't know. I also think I was planning to add some pages to this website for like showing a bunch of paper drawings I made, which actually included the specific designs I was gonna use for arcana tarot pages, since I thought making my own arcana sounded really cool, and looked funny.
I mean really that only started when I just randomly thought to do it so I could draw a cute feminine looking version of the fool, which I don't know why that would be
- 1/23/25
alright so basically I forgot what I mostly was going to write today, I do think I had some things based on the stuff I've done.
what I can remember is the fact that I discovered that the like space alchemy symbol -like those cool ones for the planets- the one for earth is actually that like green oxidized copper, which is really funny considering that venus -the planet that has copper as a symbol-, is supposed to be basically like really similar to earth, just that it doesn't have the same oxygen to support life
anyway, sadly today I lost my little joker playing card I was using to mark my notebook, so either I have to get another playing card now, or, maybe I might actually try making one myself basically, since I have been like doing a thing of trying to make cards myself, even with using tape on paper so that they look like laminated and stuff
- 1/22/25
recently I had ordered some cool stuff online a few weeks ago or so, which included some stuff both for me and my brother
mainly though, I had got four souls, which is like this really cool card game based on the binding of isaac
I played it a lot in tabletop sim due to how much I wanted to actually have the card game
in fact, wehn getting the game, I realized it hadn't came with the heart tokens the usual ones in tabletop sim did to be a player's health, not sure if they were even a real thing for other bigger versions of the game. either way, I collected a bunch of bottlecaps afterwards so I could spraypaint and draw on them to make them into homemade heart tokens.
the caps are still in my garage right now, I haven't drawn on them yet