so basically this is a page where I might write down stuff I've done recently or maybe a while ago
well I mean, like, sometimes I forget exactly when, similar to when I draw things since I don't write dates on the papers
but yeah, anyways
- 7/6/26
dear website diary, sorry for taking so long to write this one, I've had the longest ever possible 2 weeks, I'm in my nice new house at this moment right now, I had to come here early because my house FLOODED. that's right this place fucked flooded with a whole inch and an half of water, right in my room the worst specifically, which is great. the reason for it seemingly is just because the plumbing was done at the same time as an era of cheap chinese imported drywall was being used, and so at the same time as using said drywall most of the house had been done with cheap copper plumbing which then broke from the inside of the house. the water leaked from under the fireplace and spread everywhere, it was like a fucking real life nightmare SERIOUSLY. the place was also very gross I had to clean so much moldy water especially since the power went out when it touched a socket on the ground and stayed 100 degrees the whole time. I'm also gonna have to have my flooring all torn up and replaced eventually as well since it fucked up the fake wood in the floors.
at the very least, over time after getting rid of all of the water, I've been able to get back electricity, running water, internet, some good nicities and everything. I got super lucky where my poor old xbox broke from the waterlogging and some guy just happened to be selling theirs for 70 dollars with 2 controllers, can you believe that>??? that's amazing. oh, also I got a keurig, one of those coffee machine things, and I love it so much I love the coffee it makes being surprisingly good, and finally I won't waste more money buying coffee from places.
and lastly as far as I can think of, I played the new chapter of DELTARUNE that released recently, and I LOVED it personally. I think people who think it's bad are kind of stupid and are expecting way too much from the game for what it's going to do, like oh yeah, the final most important part has GOT to be this next one. I don't know, whatever I loved it anyways
hopefully, I'll remember to update on this more, I've been here for maybe about 2 weeks now or so, so it's been a while. and I think in a few days I might actually go back to my house down south more, which frankly I don't like as much, but still I have to finish it. anyway this has been francine and goodbye for now
- 6/9/26
it's about one in the morning, really the only reason this is written as the 9th instead of the 8th, I've had a long day today with a lot of being crazy over heat and getting so mad at nothing. I really feel like I'm losing my mind and becoming a worse and worse person from how I'm acting, and I'm not really sure I can blame any of it on the intense heat and lack of sleep I've been dealing with, though it certainly must affect it. I'm not doing great in general is my point, and I'm pretty sure a lot of it must be my own fault. at the very least, I have been making some progress towards my new house, but it's been a lot more in the heat and everything, having to paint the whole house and make it presentable somehow. I also have to do some of my college things to finally get the courses, which I wanna blast my head in for not realizing I could do earlier. I mean honestly wanting to blast my head in for a lot of things as of late, or I guess more accurately choke it out with a belt and cheap duct tape. despite the fact that this has been some kind of personal diary in one sense, I've never really mentioned any sort of thoughts like that to this, though maybe because I had stopped thinking them before writing most of the time. I don't know, hell if you only knew me from reading these you probably wouldn't even know if I was dead or not for a while. so I guess take it that despite my memory forgetting this so much, I probably finally killed myself if it takes a whole 3 years for me to write something again, so take that as you will
- 3/31/26
today, or, well, yesterday, I only got about 2 hours of sleep last night, which while I do think I was tired it surprisingly affected me a lot less than I thought it would, that is until now. when I took a shower at about only 7:30 and now it's 3 in the morning, hahah. in one sense I guess I'm lucky to get up this early to be prepared for things, but still it's quite a surprise to me that it happened anyways. oh, and also, hopefully I can find the plug for my drawing tablet so I can use it with this other computer I'm typing this on, as I have two which are both windows 11, I'm not sure if I remember ever mentioning when I got a new one. this one I have I got just because my dad's friend didn't want it anymoe for some reason, but the other one I have was a birthday present. now while it is nice, it sadly doesn't work with my drawing pad, as the image is widened and stretched out when I draw with it, so hopefully this one here still works normally for that so I can make digital drawings too
- 3/22/26
I'm back at my original less nice house, I got more monivation to work on my rpg thing in an open document, but something terrible today happened.
the oldest of my two small dogs I've had for almost all my life, Olivia, died today, passing the exact moment before getting into the car to leave
she wasn't doing all that great beforehand, as she had a lot of trouble walking and breathing, needing medicine to help. I guess I knew this eventually would happen, but it just was so sudden today and just at the worst moment, had to bury her right then and there. rest in peace olivia, you were the cutest friendliest dog a girl could have
- 3/21/26
hi again, pretty late right now actually, as I should likely be sleeping since tomorrow or so I have to get ready to go back to my old house for the rest of the season until summer where I'll be here again. I'm quite sad about in one sense, really wish I could stay here the whole time, I love this town>! But anyways, I hadn't mentioned before some drawing I did and a lot thinking I was doing about some concept I might *maybe* pull into some kind of rpg thing, mainly just thinking about a lot of silly rpg stuff in general. I only really have spoken about it with a few friends, and not many seemed to think it was all too interesting, though to be fair it'd be hard to make interesting from just vague spread out ideas I'd have. But if I make any real consistent progress on it or such I might share a lot more of it here, so, don't give your hopes up fully or anything, but maybe I'll make some kind of cool rpg thing maybe (the not video game kind to be clear if you were expecting that, though I would do some kind of video game if I could, but I don't know how to code and don't think I have a high enough attention span, hahah).
- 3/18/26
hi again sorry again for being gone so long, it's a bad habit with how I forget about this cool website I have. Currently I'm writing this from my new house>!! if you can believe that or not. I spent the last few days if not weeks getting ready to move to this other house slightly more up north near the college I'll be going to. It's very cold here, which is really quite nice, though luckily it will get warmer too eventually (the concept of having ACTUAL SEASONS is jarring to me). This new house is actually a little smaller than my old one, or at least it feels that way, though I think this one is basically wider but my old one had like a second floor and everything. Now technically I do have a little bit less privacy because of that, but so far it hasn't been too much of a problem for me. There's a lot of sushi places around here (presumably because of the college students who like Asian food nearby) but I'm not complaing, I love Asian food in general myself. I also had got a few games and a cool dlcs for some other ones; mainly including some for Barony for cool races I could play is, which is this rpg game and such. I also more important got Mewgenics, if you know that game, which I personally was waiting for a very long time for, and it's really really good. I also got the house of light dlc of book of hours, which is cool as that it lets you actually serve visitors in the game food and host dinner parties. Anyway, thank you for your patience -Francine
- 10/29/25
dear glowing red diary; it's almost halloween and I have NO idea what to be for a costume, if I'm even old enough to still be wearing one, I do kind of want to like buy some candy nearby maybe for it I guess, although the novelty of going out and getting some being gone is still a tiny bit sad. anyway, sadly my computer's battery seemingly shut down, which, may be my own fault frankly, it was screaming and making noises a ton. luckily though I took this computer I'm typing on right now, which should hopefully work for a while. it's a windows 11, which, I do have a few problems with frankly, even though it does admiteddly run faster. just that I think it looks too much like it wants to be a macintosh in its visual design, that, and of course the fact that it has annoying as shit features I had to remove moments after getting it. such as a bunch of personal privacy breaching stuff and recording my data for microsoft executives or whatever. and that annoying as shit implementation of artifical intelligence into the very CORE of the computer. I don't know what annoying as shit corp executive decided that was a good idea, but I hope he sits on a tack for it and making me have to spend like 40 minutes learning how to internally remove it. ANyway, since it's the 29th and october's almost over, november has almost come, meaning soon it;ll be my favorite month of the year, including when my birthday is>!! which is cool for me, I have some things I think I might get for such hopefully. anyway, sorry for being gone for half a year like this, love Francine
- 4/30/25
yeah, sorry again, I forgot for like about a month or so on writing these like this, which I do want to be able to do a lot obviously, this thingy made me really really happy and feel like I was doing something, though I keep forgetting while being busy with bullshit and everything, so I need some way of remembering it more I guess. but anyway, two days ago was absolute total shit, frankly, I felt practically like I had a fever, it was terrible, I passed out asleep right before a big performance thing I needed to be at and missed all of it, which felt horrible. and still a day later I fely extremely dehydrated throughout the whole day. at the very least. I feel slightly better now, and at least have the relaxing time to write out a message like this. oh, and I got a new rock tumbler, not sure if I mentioned me using it before, but the first one I had wasn't make great results and eventually broke, possibly partially my fault in not wanting to have to pay for grit but then finally just using the man made grit the other one came with. otherwise, I was honestly just trying to use sand and water but that might've been what broke it I guess>? what kind of machine meant to work with water isn't fucking waterproof though, just seemed really stupid to me
- 3/18/25
okay so I am extremely sorry about this, I forgot about this website I had for way longer than I probably should've, and therefore didn't really write much on it for a long while. I'm here now at the very least, probably needing to finish more information pages at one point or another. I honestly can't remember much of what I've done recently at the moment, apart from maybe like finding this one cool online pokemon game that my one friend told me about to play it with him (still haven't really played it yet, but getting at it) but yeah like in general I had be fixated on pokemon stuff and everything, and a lot of it is really cool. I learned how to play the actual game with the trading cards for the first time EVER, but sadly I really don't have many ways of truly playing it well or many people to play it with, even with having tabletop simulator.
though it is ridiculous, my one hope is to one day randomly find someone who has a deck of pokemon cards, so I can battle them with it
oh, and I also learned how to play a super obscure playing card game called parlay that my one other friend the habit rabbit man taught me, I like it a lot though it is a lot to learn and teach, and can take a lot of time to play out, but I did play it out during lunch once at least, which was cool
- 2/9/25
came back today after this like super short trip and stuff that only lasted a day or so. I went to like this cool town where it was basically the oldest town in america from being from the original spainards and stuff, but unfortunately it was hard to really appreciate it and stuff, since I was feeling ill from my flu or whatever that was still lasting way longer than I think it really should've. it certainly got better once I got home, but my throat and crap wasn't the best, so I sat in the car for a lot. but it looked cool at least, you know. also, just recently got that one cool jojo artbook from online I ordered recently, wanted to get the more recent one made since about part 5, but it was too expensive compared to this. but it's still really cool and stuff anyway
- 2/4/25
I woke up today slow and tired, really unable to get myself ready to deal with the rest of the day like I usually do. so today, I had to stay home from being sort of sick. during this time I at least drew a bit while laying down and watching like a wes anderson movie on the couch. I also have made more progress to completing my esoteric bullshit pages. also also, while I don't usually mention what I listen to, since it helps to have music to write down my thoughts, I would like to mention that I'm writing this one specifically while listening to the sopranos intro, which I thought was funny. anyway, I have to get those drawings I made today on here along with some others I grabbed from before
- 2/1/25
the last two days have been really really short and such, mostly from me spending like fucking 9 hours at my honors choir perfomance rehearsal. it was a long like 2 hour drive both on the day of the rehearsal and on the actual performance.
though the actual performance itself was only 5 hours though. there was some funny people from some other schools and such, like the one guy in tenor I sat next to who I joked around with as I watched the other part of the performance with them. anyway, while I was there too, I had like a few thoughts I don't remember too much about but do remember asking something to my friend about. mostly on how I felt this strange feeling when it came to what kind of people were in a social group with me. in which I had the feeling that like, being around a bunch of boys is sort of intimidating in a way, where I assume they can get rowdy together. but being around only other girls is almost intimidating as well, as if it feels competitive, or really that I would be singled out. so truthfully, I think I realized and asked about how I seemingly am much more comfortable with a group of people if there are both girls and boys.
or maybe I'm really just more comfortable around queer people, which is probably the answer.
straight and cis people too much is annoying if not almost unsettling to me
- 1/27/25
fucking finally gonna actually post those photos of my drawings and stuff with page for it, I know I said I would before a bunch, but I like really mean it this time. and I'm gonna start on the tarot pages
also, had a chorus rehearsal today. after years of hating myself while in it, thinking I sounded like shit, I finally now don't feel like that, and now all I focus on is others around me actually being worse, so that I, as the older kid in the section, can tell them how to actually do what they think they're shit at, ironically just like how I felt myself.
the circle of life really is something I guess.
- 1/25/25
I lost some of my nice nail paint in dark blue I had today, where I thought I left it on the same table I work on but it isn't there, so I don't know. I also think I was planning to add some pages to this website for like showing a bunch of paper drawings I made, which actually included the specific designs I was gonna use for arcana tarot pages, since I thought making my own arcana sounded really cool, and looked funny.
I mean really that only started when I just randomly thought to do it so I could draw a cute feminine looking version of the fool, which I don't know why that would be
- 1/23/25
alright so basically I forgot what I mostly was going to write today, I do think I had some things based on the stuff I've done.
what I can remember is the fact that I discovered that the like space alchemy symbol -like those cool ones for the planets- the one for earth is actually that like green oxidized copper, which is really funny considering that venus -the planet that has copper as a symbol-, is supposed to be basically like really similar to earth, just that it doesn't have the same oxygen to support life
anyway, sadly today I lost my little joker playing card I was using to mark my notebook, so either I have to get another playing card now, or, maybe I might actually try making one myself basically, since I have been like doing a thing of trying to make cards myself, even with using tape on paper so that they look like laminated and stuff
- 1/22/25
recently I had ordered some cool stuff online a few weeks ago or so, which included some stuff both for me and my brother
mainly though, I had got four souls, which is like this really cool card game based on the binding of isaac
I played it a lot in tabletop sim due to how much I wanted to actually have the card game
in fact, wehn getting the game, I realized it hadn't came with the heart tokens the usual ones in tabletop sim did to be a player's health, not sure if they were even a real thing for other bigger versions of the game. either way, I collected a bunch of bottlecaps afterwards so I could spraypaint and draw on them to make them into homemade heart tokens.
the caps are still in my garage right now, I haven't drawn on them yet